Failure Bow Wow Wow

I suck at improv.

Tonight was rehearsal for this Saturday’s edition of Fandom: The Hunger Games. We spent most of the time talking about the show (it’s format heavy). Then we did a few practice games/exercises near the end.

I took part in a “Hesitation Debate,” which is where two improvisers debate a subject, occasionally getting random words from the audience that they must incorporate into their speech.


And I sucked at it.

My speech was unfocused and uncommitted and borderline racist. And instead of recommitting and powering through, I winked and guffawed and told my cast mates I wasn’t focused. Lame excuse.

In my 18 months of improv, I’ve experienced a roller coaster of ego. When, after attending my first Improv Mixer, I was cast in three shows/troupes at once, I was King Shit of Improv Mountain. I got cocky. I knew I was the best phenom on the scene. I could barely be touched.

Another time, I was eliminated from three Maestros in a row after the first round. That shattered my ego, and convinced me I was a joke, an imposter, a major noob.

Since then I’ve gone up and down a couple of times, but the highs aren’t as high, and the lows aren’t as low. I’m evening out a bit.

But after tonight, especially in the wake of last week’s show—which was truly excellent and truly didn’t include me—-I feel like a bum steer. I know it’ll pass, and I also know I tend to “turn it on” when it’s showtime.

So I’m not worried. I know I don’t suck. But right now I have to figure out a way to, especially in rehearsal, commit, focus, and connect.

Commit. Focus. Connect.

That said, GO SEE FANDOM!

1 Comment

  1. Friend on January 24, 2013 at 8:04 am

    Never judge your improv skills based off of how well you play short form games. There are people who have been performing for 10 years that still suck at the alphabet game, but watch them do a Harold and be blown away. Just remember, you are still an infant. Some infants learn to walk faster than others, but then they need to learn to not piss themselves. And once they learn that, 1,000 other lessons are needed. Don’t get frustrated.

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